Sunday, February 22, 2009

at the close of every day

This is a really cool band from the Netherlands. (I'm pretty sure it's the Netherlands anyway.  I guess I should double check at some point.)  I hope you like the song.

In this video, they're putting together their album (literally).  It looks like a lot of work, but also like a lot of fun.  I hope to do this one day.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Snow in Brooklyn


I wrote this song a long time ago.  It's not really finished, but I kind of like it that way.

Being a Teacher. A survey from John.

Hey Doug!

First of all, I hope that all went well with the doctor and you are feeling much better.
So these are the questions I have. As I have told you before, I have been assigned this project in the seminar I am taking. It is a self-assessment project, where I need to find information about the career I want to pursue. The questions I am asking you cannot be responded to by any other source but you. Only someone who is in the field can really tell me about it. Don't worry it will be painless!! I was originally going to turn it in by Feb 6, but my prof will let me hand it in by Feb 12, so don't worry, take your time with it.

1-What is your degree in, and educational background?
I attended k-7 at Brent International School (Baguio City, Philippines)
High School – Duncanville High School (Duncanville, TX)
College – Ouachita Baptist University (Arkadelphia, AR) BA in English
College – Salzburg College (Salzburg, Austria) – one semester
Graduate School – Northern Arizona University (Flagstaff, AZ) MA in TESOL

2-What changes of career direction did you make while you were in college, or thereafter?
At first, my intention was to go into psychology and go into counseling. Then I realized that I loved English grammar, literature, poetry, and linguistics. After college I had no idea what I wanted to do, but I knew I loved linguistics. My professor and friend, Dr. Tom Greer, suggested I do an MA in ESL at NAU. I followed his advice.

3-In terms of people, are there any role models who have contributed to your success, or actually influenced you in becoming a teacher?
My grandmother was an English teacher in Mena High School in Mena, AR. She was the first person to sit down with me and work through a poem. That moment is one of my greatest memories.

My college professors were also a tremendous influence. I cannot narrow it down lower than four, so here are my top four and my reasons why:
Dr. Johnny Wink, English Professor – This man memorized and wrote a poem every day. He could recite almost anything. He had a love for poetry which was only matched by his kindness for other people.

Dr. Susan Wink, English Professor – Dr. Wink (or Dr. Wink’s husband’s wife, as Dr. Johnny Wink used to call her) was the perfect teacher. Her classes were so difficult that you could not get through them without studying intensely. She made literature meaningful in a historical and critical context. She was also my grammar teacher and her grammar classes were extremely intense. Why do I say she was the perfect teacher? She was orderly, concise, and was a genius at weaving lessons together. It seemed like on the last day of classes with her, you always had an “a-ha” moment.

Dr. Doug Sonhiem, English Professor – His first year teaching was my freshman year. He taught me that it was okay to reinvent yourself as a teacher and to try different styles. Every class I took with him was different.

Dr. Greer, Professor of English (and at one time religion) – He was like another father to me. He trusted me and nurtured me on many levels. I spent many summer days at his house, building a deck for him. He was a great man. Unfortunately, he died unexpectedly.


4-Besides that, why becoming a teacher? What do you find so especial/peculiar about it? What prevented you for doing something else? (If you had another option besides being a teacher)
I knew I was going to be a teacher because I had a high school teacher that was trying to explain something to the class and I could see why he was not being successful. I thought, “Man, I can explain this better than he can.” And then I felt a chill go up my spine and I thought, “Damn it. I’m going to be a teacher.” I spent the next four or five years trying to shirk that moment. It didn’t work.

I guess I just have an ability to empathize with people really well. I can usually pin point where a problematic area lies. I had so many bad teachers. Mean. Rude. Impatient. Unintelligent. Politic. I just want to be in a classroom so I can help people out. I have told myself from the beginning of my career that I will be very strict, but flexible. And I’ll never try to make anyone feel stupid in my class. My job is to teach, and if my students try but don’t get it, then I need to find another way to explain.

Teaching allows enough time for me to work on my other passion: music.


5-Can you mention something in your job that is stimulating and keeps you going? Besides caffeine, psychological and financial rewards apply!!!
1. Good days keep me going.
2. Vacation is the best.
3. Students saying, “Oh!”
4. Being in control of my job.
5. Being with other people all day long.
6. Helping


6-How did you obtain the job you currently hold? What are the entry requirements (in terms of education; bachelor's degree, masters, other advanced degrees, personal qualities, skills?) Was it through your career network, or a result of your own job hunting? For you, what would be the best way to market yourself when seeking for a job?
I got my job through a friend of mine, You might know him: Jon Pauley. I met him at a party and he recommended me to Mimi. I probably wouldn’t have this job if it weren’t for him. You need a master’s degree. It’s just a good idea to have one. Connections are the best way to get jobs. Meet people. Be friendly, but not obsequious. Be confident, but not smug. When I was first looking for a job in NYC, I just made phone calls all over the place. I made a list and just went through it.

7-Did you do any sort of research about your career before you selected it? (Personality tests, meaning if you were suitable for this, interviews, and general information about the career) Was this actually helpful? Beucase this is what I’m just doing!!)
My research was minimal. I knew I wanted to teach and I still plan at some point to get another degree or go another direction. Teaching ESL is fantastic but it’s not the end of the road for me.

8-Are there any types of pressures in your job? What are they? Also, what are the challenges (in general) ?
The pressures are numerous and varied. However, there is no job without pressure.
1. No matter the class, there is always going to be one student who makes it challenging.
2. You have to be organized everyday, but you cannot spend too much time organizing. People who spend hours on their lessons exhaust themselves.
3. It is sometimes difficult to measure student success.
4. Student evaluations can be very frustrating. They rarely reflect how much you work.
5. Students sometimes forget how hard it is for you to plan lessons.
6. You won’t make tons of money.
7. When I tell people that I teach, they sometimes become very patronizing. (Oh, how wonderful! What a noble job! It must be very rewarding!) You have to do it because you want to. Besides rock star or ice cream taster, I can’t think of a better job.
8. It is rare to have an administration that fully supports you. I have worked for six schools and only three of them have had a supportive administration.
9. Grading is tough.
10. Teaching all of your material can be difficult.

9-Based on your experience, what advice about education and work experience would you share with me? What skills do you think I should cultivate in order to succeed?
1. Confidence in yourself. You have to know that you are a good teacher. You have to know that you are explaining the materials.
2. A reason for everything you do in the classroom. You have to know why you do each activity. You have to have a reason.
3. Patience with people who “don’t get it.”
4. Structured lessons
5. An ability to figure out where a student’s understanding is falling apart.
6. Back to confidence. There will be other teachers who are negative. There will be students who tell you that you’re a bad teacher. You have to do it for yourself. You have to be able to tell yourself that you know who you are even on a bad day. If you do your best each day, then nobody’s negativity can break you. Focus on your success.
7. Flexibiliy. Remember that we all learn differently. That means you have to try several ways of teaching.
8. Forgiveness: forgive yourself for your bad days and try to be positive the next day. This happens with everyone.
9. Remember that you are not responsible for a student’s unwillingness to work, but you should always try to encourage them.
10. Don’t get involved in faculty-faculty or faculty-student gossip. When you let negative words leave your mouth, negative feelings lay eggs inside you.


10-How do you deal with overwhelming situations? What is your best strategy to overcome those obstacles? Possitive thinking, law of attraction?
It depends on the obstacle. The most successful way that I have found to deal with an obstacle is to do the following:
1. Identify why it’s an obstacle.
2. Identify what it means to overcome and obstacle (i.e., How will I measure my success?).
3. Identify the impetus for overcoming the obstacle and deciding if it reflects my core beliefs.
4. Make a plan of action.
5. Actually take my own advice and following steps 1-4.

11-Do you think this is what you were meant to be? What tells you that?
I’m meant to be a teacher. I need to be a teacher to those with a thirst for learning. I do not have a desire to be a lecturer, but I would love to get a degree in old, middle, early modern English. Am I meant to be an ESL teacher? For now I am.

12-How would like your students to remember you after a term has ended?
I would like to be remembered as a teacher who …
1. Cared about the students’ success.
2. Brought a sense of genuine confidence to those who think little of themselves.
3. Was organized and explained things well.
4. Was passionate about the topics of discussion.
5. Wanted the students to succeed.
6. Treated everyone equally without regard to race, religion, or popularity.
7. Ran a tight ship, where you could not be in the class without developing
8. Made class fun.
9. Didn’t take himself seriously, but took his job very seriously.
10. Did everthing he could to encourage and stimulate the students.

So this is it!! You can email me the answers or print them, whatever is easier for you. This will be read just for my professor and I, so it'll be confidencial.
I thank you before hand, this infomation will be really valuable for me to zero in on what I want to persue as a career, because Im sort of undecided regarding chosing my career, and also, this will be helpful to understand myself better. Thank you very much!!!

See ya!!

Jonathan.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Reaction to High Fidelity: TMPMITW (page 141)

In class, I think I have already mentioned, we've been watching and reading High Fidelity. I've got to say that although the book is always better, the film does a really great job of capturing the humor, self-deprication, and emotional turmoil of the book. I do however think the book pulls off the sarcasm a little better, but I don't want to go into why right now. I know, I know...defend your point, but I prefer to keep the reading coming back for more.

As I've been rereading this book, I've run into some parts that I find really introspective and (of course) hilarious.

In chapter 11, Rob goes to his folks' house, I guess to get some TLC. His mom always puts him on a guilt trip (In chapter two he explains that he and his mother swapped roles when he was nine years old.), but he holds a certain amount of affection for her anyway. So he goes to his parents' house, probably dreading seeing them a bit, and it turns out that they're not home. I can kind of feel the emptiness of the house. Anyway, they end up seeing him (They had only been across the stree.) and insist that he come with them to a movie. In the theater he sees another thirty-something, obviously in the same state, and loathes him. He refers to him as "The Most Pathetic Man In The World" -- TMPMITW.

In class we discussed this TMPMITW as a personification of all of Rob's self-criticism and fear.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Sixty Personal Questions

These are sixty personal questions that I asked my class. I used this instead of the typical getting to know you stuff. It is more entertaining and actually tells me a lot about their personalities and language skills. (Additionally it's inspiration for essay topics.)

I figured that, since I asked the students to answer these questions, I should as well.


Would you rather be rich and have no free time or struggle with money but have loads of free time?
-- I'd rather struggle with money and have tons of free time. I like to spend time playing music and hanging out with my wife. If I had all the money in the world, but no free time, the only thing I would want to do is what I mentioned above anyway.

If you were a boss, would your rather be liked or feared?
--I would rather be liked than feared. I don't think fear is a healthy motivator.

Do you prefer to dress nicely or comfortably?
--comfortably. But I'm not a slob.

Would you ever get a tattoo? Do you have one?
-- I have two. Dragons on my back and Texas on my arm. I plan to get more.

Who is the most influential person in your life?
--It depends on which part of my life you're talking about. Probably my wife.

Do you prefer the excitement of a new relationship or the comfort of a long relationship?
--excitement is nice, but it doesn't last forever. I prefer the comfort of a long relationship.

Your walking down the street with your love, where are you going?
--We're walking to Cafe Cubana and she's trying to convince me not to order too much food. I tell her won't, but I know that I will.

What is your pet peeve?
--I don't like it when people call me over to them using their pointer finger. You know, like a dog?

What do you get excited about?
--I get excited about playing music, going to movies (I hardly ever go), and if I know I have a package in the mail.

What's the last thing you laughed really hard over?
--I laugh every day. Usually at myself. Just tonight I tried to take a glass over water, a bowl of salad, and a plate of chicken to the table in one trip. I'm notorious for breaking dishes. So my wife looked at me and I knew if I laughed, I'd drop everything. I laughed and laughed. But I didn't drop anything.

Could you live without your cell phone for one week? One month?
-- I only need a cell phone to meet up with people and for emergencies. I hate phone conversations.

What woke you up this morning?
--Restlessness.

Do you myspace or facebook?
--both. I didn't want to join facebook, but it's very useful.

If you could take one friend on vacation with you, who would it be?
--Besides my wife, either my friend Shane or Jeremy.

Are you scared of spiders, cockroaches, or snakes?
--I am terrified of cockroaches. I'd be scared of a poisonous snake. But I'd probably be more scared of a roach.

Could you go a month without cursing?
--I wish.

Does cursing make you uncomfortable or are you indifferent?
--It depends on who is cursing and what they're cursing about.

Do you prefer a wild night on the town or a quiet evening at home?
--I prefer a wild night on the town.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
--I would move to Germany.

How many true friends do you have?
--I've heard that if you have one true friend, you're blessed. If you have two true friends that you're rich. And if you've got three true friends, you're a fool. I think that statement is untrue. Or maybe I'm a fool.

What is something you really want right now?
--I really want to finish writing a new song.

Are you a forgiving person?
--Very. But it's hard for me to forgive people who aren't sorry.

Have you ever thought you were going to marry someone?
--I did marry someone. Lucky me.

Last person to make you smile?
--Lauren

Do you miss anyone?
--I miss my sister Whitney, my sister Courtney, my friends Shane, Matt B., Matt M., and Jeremy B.

Are you sarcastic?
--Yes.

Is it more important to be honest or kind?
-- This is cheating, but a perfect combination. You should be both. I don't trust people who say they are honest but act unkindly. I think those people are narrow-minded and selfish.

Are you a bad or a good influence?
--I can be both. I'd like to think I'm a good influence.

Is there anyone you want to visit you?
--The people I miss.

What time did you wake up this morning?
-- 9:30

What is something your friends make fun of you for?
--They make fun of me for my jokes when they don't work.

In one word describe yourself.
--Happy

Is there anyone you wish could “see you now?”
-- I sometimes wish my old friends from the Philippines could see me now.

What is your dream job?
--English teacher in Germany and rockstar on the side.

Do you listen to music? How often?
--If I'm not listening to music, it's playing in my head. Everyday!

What is your favorite movie?
--The Big Lebowski, Dogtown and Z-boys, and Band of Brothers

You is your favorite celebrity?
--

Brittany Spears: yes or no?
--Over my dead body.

Michael Jackson: yes or no?
--meh

Tom Cruise: yes or no?
--I don't CARE!!!

Madonna: yes or no?
--Sometimes.

What is your favorite song?
--Depends. Maybe ... Sylvia Said by John Cale

Are you easily offended?
--Not really. Just about a few things.

What is your favorite book?
--The Lord of the Rings

Does the idea of going to college intimidate you?
--Actually, sometimes I get intimidated about going back to school.

Do you like change?
--I like the idea of change, but it's really hard to do.

Are you a control freak?
--Not about most things. But in the classroom, I probably am.

What is the scariest experience you’ve ever had?
--I look back on things I did and can't believe I survived.

What is the happiest moment you’ve had in the last year?
--My band playing three shows in Texas.

Do you consider yourself a hard worker, or are you lazy?
--Hard worker, but I procrastinate.

What is your favorite leisure time activity?
--Playing music.

Do you like reading? Why or why not?
--Yes. Sometimes I try to read things that are too hard.

When you read, what makes it interesting for you?
--The way the author uses words.

What makes you feel like a successful student?
--Getting an A in a really hard class. Feeling prepared. When the teacher tells me I did a good job.

What are your plans for next year?
--Next year, I'm planning to move to Germany and then to the west coast.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Top Five Songs

In our class we have been reading the book High Fidelity by Nick Hornby. In the book, the characters make lists of their top fives. For example, the book has lists of top five songs, albums, movies, American movies, and personal breakups.

This is a list of my top five favorite songs in chronological order.

1. These Arms of Mine -- Otis Redding.
2. Hickory Wind -- Graham Parsons
3. Sylvia Said -- John Cale
4. Teeth Like God's Shoeshine -- Modest Mouse
5. Two-Headed Boy part 2 -- Neutral Milk Hotel


I reserve the right to edit this list at any time.

I'm having my students write their list of top 5's including the following information:
name of song
artist
year
genre
memorable lyrics
memory association
blurb

1. These Arms of Mine -- Otis Redding.
artist -- Otis Redding
year -- not available
genre -- soul
memorable lyrics -- Just be my little woman. Just be my lover. I need somebody to treat me right. I need your warm, loving arms to hold me tight.
memory association -- I associate this song with my junior year of college. I used to play this song really loudly from my truck because it was ironic in a powerful way. My college was small and students really liked terrible rock and roll songs. I found their tastes bland. So I would blast Otis Redding from my truck in defiance of the terrible music I was surrounded by. Looking back, it wasn't the attitude that made me cool. No, the attitude was decidedly uncool and preposterous. If there is any saving grace to my actions, it was just that I was listening to Otis Redding.
blurb -- The music and lyrics of this song reach into me and move me; this is bolstered, not betrayed, by Otis' raspy, pleading voice.

2. Hickory Wind --
artist -- Graham Parsons
year -- 196?
genre -- country
memorable lyrics -- Now when I'm lonesome, I can always pretend that I'm getting the feel of hickory wind.
memory association -- I associate this song with sitting at a friends dining room table in North Carolina. I used to play music in a coffee shop there.
blurb -- Hickory Wind is a song that has always existed; the artist just pulled it out of the air. It is best sung as simply as possible. Overproduction takes away from its floating quality.

3. Sylvia Said
artist -- John Cale
year -- 197?
genre -- pop
memorable lyrics -- So I'll cope with you. Don't cope at all. Let's leave it all to the chef. And please send my regrets in case I forget to a PO Box nobody owns.
memory association -- I remember listening to this song at my friend's house in Dallas. The house was very dark and we were drinking beer and smoking cigarettes. (Yes. I used to smoke. Don't do it. It's very bad for you.) His room was lit by a very dim light so every looked orange as if it were lit by candles. My mother called me at his house and told me about a friend of mine who died in Iraq. I know it sounds cliche, but I felt like his soul floated away with the music. Ironically, the music sounds very stilted and unimpressive to some listeners.
blurb -- The perfect song if you want to remember the ghost of hope when loss stops by for the night.

4. Teeth Like God's Shoeshine
artist --Modest Mouse
year -- 1997
genre -- independent (indie)
memorable lyrics -- you can be ashamed
or be so proud of what you've done
but not no one, not now, not ever or anyone
take 'em all for the sense of happiness
that comes from hurting deep down inside
Or you can walk th line and give a shit
I'm on the corner of this and this and this and this
and its all all wrong, and its all all gone
memory association -- The first time I heard this group, I didn't like them. Then one day I put on the album, went out to the parking lot of my apartment complex, sat in a lawn chair, and listened to it. It was in Arizona in the spring of 1999. I knew from that day and forever, that I would love this band. I have never lost that feeling. I have never stopped listening to this album.
blurb -- The song moves from hard to slow to fast to stopped to raging. It's like a normal day.

5. Two-Headed Boy part 2
artist --Neutral Milk Hotel
year -- 1998
genre -- indie
memorable lyrics -- Brother see we are one in the same. God is place where some holy spectacle lies. God is a place we will wait for the rest of our lives.
memory association -- Every time I hear this song, I think back to driving from Dallas to Little Rock Arkansas to visit my sister and bury my grandfather. I felt like the trees along the highway could remember me. I wondered how long the had been there. I wondered what it would be like to be an animal who lived near the tree. I wondered if they knew the kind of furious lives that passed them by in cars. I wondered if I knew the kind of furious lives that I passed in my car every day. Everyone has a soul, aching to be realized. Everyone has to bury someone.
blurb -- Will we ever realize if forever really exists?

Monday, January 12, 2009

Censorship of the Arts Esasy by Doug

This essay is intended to be an example for his students.

Censorship of the Arst

This week our essay will be focusing on the censorship of the arts. I find myself metaphorically sitting on my hands a lot trying not to give an opion, nor trying to poo-poo my students' opinions. This I think is one of my greatest teaching challenges.

C.S. Lewis writes in his Reflection on the Psalms, that people (generations) tend to assume that they stand on the apex of all wisdom and knowledge. It's a difficult practice to steer clear of that thinking -- a kind of constant drawing up of subconcious assumptions.

So in my attempts to get students to open their minds to new ideas, I'm trying to ask a lot of questions about why their opinions are true.

Students' minds have formed the way they have for innumerable reasons. I think it would be a mistake to assume that agreeing with me is progress (though I stand by my views regardign censorship). The goal should be developing students who can think about, express, and support arguments.

More to come regarding this.

First Week of Class

Look, let me be honest with you. I'm writing this blog for two reasons: #1) to experiment with online tools for ESL teaching and #2) to give my students a chance to look at some of my ideas.

The first week of class has been interesting. I've found out a few things about myself:

1) I don't like using other people's grammar diagnostics.
2) I get more information regarding grammar from student writing rather than the diagnostic tests.
3) I must give daily reading quizzes to monitor student reading and understanding.


That's all.